“Mother, this must come to an
end. Really, it’s high time it stopped. I can’t take it anymore. Ok, I know,
you are worried, you are anxious, you are afraid. But I am young, I want to
live, I want to feel alive. This isn’t living. Can’t you see? I am worse than
this stupid hamster you brought me as a present! At least, this silly thing
doesn’t think, doesn’t feel, has absolutely no idea what the world outside is
about. Its universe is just this cage, it is happy with a little food and with
this spinning wheel, which, I tell you, is driving me crazy!
It’s not my fault if you see
enemies and dangers everywhere, if you’re afraid of your very shadow, if you
dare not live. Look at your miserable life. Do you call this a life? Cleaning
stairs and washing clothes and dishes. No man, no friend, no laugh. Tell me
honestly are you pleased? No, I don’t care what you think, I just don’t want to
end up like you!”
His mother stops for a
moment what she is doing, her hands in the air, her back tense, eyes staring
the white wall tiles above the sink, but she doesn’t turn or say a word. Then
she gets back to her work.
“Listen to me, Mother! The
illness is over. I am not an ill person anymore. Ok, I have to take some
medicine for the rest of my life and follow a certain way of living, but no
doctor said not to live at all. I was there, mum, with you - remember? - when
they told us about the illness and the treatment and what to do and all this
stuff. Normal life, they said. Go out with friends, go to a party, on a date,
on a trip. Yes, normal life. Look around you, mother! Do you think this life,
this prison, is normal?
Mother! I’m talking to you! Can’t
you just stop washing these damned dishes and look at me? Why do you keep ignoring
what I say, how I feel?”
As there is still no
reaction from her part, the teenager gets up, goes to the kitchen, opens a
kitchen drawer and takes a meat knife. His mother hears the sounds, stays
motionless, but still doesn’t turn.
“Mother, look at me! You don’t want to lose this
sight, I swear! Guess what! I am going to start by stabbing your pretty little
hamster right in the heart!”
Just live!!! Well done, mm!
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήThank you, dd!
ΔιαγραφήGripping....was sure he was going to stab his Mother...nice twist there at the end!...
ΑπάντησηΔιαγραφήI'm so so happy you can read some writing of mine in your language. Thanks, Susan!
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